Delusional Self Confidence

Musing on life, startups, and good things by @AlexisTryon


Just keep typing…

"Startups rarely die in mid keystroke." Paul Graham 

You just had a killer month. Blew away your goals. Finished that release on time, and under budget. Users raved. Investors glowed. 

If you’ve been at this awhile, you know what comes next. That whole “up and to the right” thing is a well marketed lie. It goes up, and wiggles, and dives, and goes up again. Get ready for troughs of sorrow, peaks of false hope, and blips too strange to have their own names yet.  

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There is nothing like the moment you hit send on a great update to your team or your investors. It’s a moment, maybe an hour, of total elation. And then the doubt creeps in. What if I can’t beat these numbers next month? What if this success was just a fluke? What if? 

You have a lot of “what if” moments in front of you, and more behind you than you can count. When that fear comes in, I remind myself I can’t control the future - but I can sure as hell try. I can decide not to quit, not to die. I can push forward. If startups are “two steps forward and one step back”, then I can prepare for a long walk. Because as Paul Graham wisely said, startups rarely die in mid keystroke. 

So just keep typing. 

This is insanely hard.

This year, one of my New Year’s resolutions was to start writing again. I love the feeling I get when pouring my thoughts out on paper - it’s therapeutic, it’s, focusing, it’s calming. And it’s insanely hard. 

Here we are, April 21st - the 111th day of the year. I could quit. That really seems like the logical thing to do, nearly a 1/3 of the way into the year. I’m a pretty logical person. Yet, I find myself here writing a post.

I find the writing easy, but publishing is hard. Publishing is public; it becomes about something bigger than just you. I know the fears that hold me back: I’ll write a few posts and realize that’s all the interesting material I have in me. No one will care. Everyone will care. (I’m not sure which is more frightening). I’ll over think every post and never hit that ‘publish’ button. 

I don’t have time for fears. I have 1/3 of the year behind me and its time to dig into that delusional self confidence and march forward. 

So, without further ado, today I am launching my personal blog. I am titling it after a phrase that has become a personal rallying point over the past 2 years - Delusional Self Confidence. It’s about believing in yourself, even when you’re not sure why. It’s about pushing yourself farther, not knowing where your limit is. And its about failing - but getting right back up.  

Many of the posts will be purely for me, some will be for you. This one is for me. I am drawing my line in the sand, and jumping into the fray of writing. I look forward to seeing where it takes me.  

Flowers & pillow fights in Union Square. Must be time for spring? 

Incredible gelato at Il Laboratorio del Gelato (Houston & Ludlow). I went with rosemary and pear, but tried cheddar cheese, black mission fig, black peppercorn. A must try.

Incredible gelato at Il Laboratorio del Gelato (Houston & Ludlow). I went with rosemary and pear, but tried cheddar cheese, black mission fig, black peppercorn. A must try.

caterpillarcowboy:

Check out that moist brisket! (Taken with Instagram at Snow’s BBQ)

Honestly the best BBQ I’ve ever had, at 8:30am after an hour drive. Divine. Go to Snow’s in Lexington, TX - Saturday mornings before 10am only.

caterpillarcowboy:

Check out that moist brisket! (Taken with Instagram at Snow’s BBQ)

Honestly the best BBQ I’ve ever had, at 8:30am after an hour drive. Divine. Go to Snow’s in Lexington, TX - Saturday mornings before 10am only.

I haven’t had much time to blog here lately, but wanted to share this video. Sometimes you just need a good laugh. And laughing at our own tech crazed world is a good place to start. Enjoy! 

artsicle:

And we’re live! 
Artsicle’s private beta officially went live this morning. We are excited about our initial site and hope you will be too. Stay tuned for more artists going live soon, as well as some additional features to allow more interaction between artists and collectors. 
If you don’t have an invite yet, click here to request one! 

artsicle:

And we’re live! 

Artsicle’s private beta officially went live this morning. We are excited about our initial site and hope you will be too. Stay tuned for more artists going live soon, as well as some additional features to allow more interaction between artists and collectors. 

If you don’t have an invite yet, click here to request one! 

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Mix and match fresh peppers in union square. Yum.

Mix and match fresh peppers in union square. Yum.